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Gracefully Frank

Even the sun realizes it’s impossible to shine at 5am. With sleepy eyes and dragging feet, I lugged my suitcases, much lighter than when I arrived, down the steps of the little upstairs apartment that has been home for a few days, toward my friends and their car that would take me to the airport. It’s the day to leave. It feels like I’ve been gone longer than the number of days passed would suggest, but it has been a blessed and encouraging time in Cuba. 

It was too dark outside to capture any of the moments passing outside my non-rolling-down window. I would say 74.2% of the pictures I take are from the seat of a car outside a window on our way to the next training or visit. I like capturing moments of real life in the places the Lord takes us. I try to keep my phone balanced on the window sill of the door and subtly snap the shot. Many are blurry, but some bring the life on the side of the road into focus. 

As we drove to the airport we passed a scene that has come to mind often since leaving. On top of a small cement-block home with bars on the windows was a wooden manger covered with rows of Christmas lights. It was maybe 6ft wide and 4ft tall. I’m not a good judge of that kind of thing, but it was not super small. Inside the stable scene where you would expect to see the people of the nativity there where 3ft tall figures made out of hard plastic and fading color with mainly only the red of their clothes still visible. 

It wasn’t Jesus. There was no Mary or Joseph. The only figures inside the stable were two wise men. My assumption is that over the years the other figures must have been broken or lost somehow and had been irreplaceable. My friend told us that for many years there were no Christmas decorations available in the country.  They could only decorate inside churches and, just like their cars, they could only use what Christmas decorations they already had before the revolution.  But on the roof of the home we drove by, even with the figures that were lacking to fulfill the full nativity scene, all of the same care and work of putting up those decorations had been given. They only had two wise men, but they proudly and reverently put those guys up there to shine brightly into the night. Anyone who saw them shining would know the Holy Night and the birth of our Savior that they represent. The people who slept under the roof below made the best and brightest of what they had been given, and their joy multiplied at least to me, and probably to many others.

Taking some liberties with their story here, I imagine their kids and grandkids still loved to see those two wise men lit up in all their faded plastic glory at Christmas. Having come to know more about the heart and the spirit of the Cuban people, I imagine they didn’t take much time to regret the figures that had been lost over the years. I imagine that the contented sigh and thrill of the moment those two light up is still as sweet as it ever was, year after year.

I have been given much and I am missing much. Probably most of anyone reading this could say the same no matter what their nativity scene looks like as people pass by it in cars on the street. But, you guys, at the very least, I certainly have two wise men. Probably most of anyone reading this could say the same. I am so thankful to climb up on the rooftop of the life I’ve been given and string up the lights around the stable and excitedly plug in all I have to shine brightly into the dark to represent the scene of the One I worship and adore. 

Maybe you only have two wise men. Maybe you have two wise men, a donkey, and Mary. Hopefully, you have Jesus. Whatever you have, practice plugging in what is yours and shine brightly.  

After leaving Cuba I met a colleague in Washington D.C. to talk about sharing hope in her country. I would have met her anywhere the Lord made available, but it was here. I’ve always wanted to come here. I had one full day and a few intermittent hours one evening and one morning to plug in my own two wise men and delight in what I have been given. I am so incredibly delighted to have visited here and so incredibly thankful to be on my way home.  Here are a few moments from the past couple of weeks...

Sunrise over OKC.







This is the first church we visited.
Their Christmas Pageant was held the night before we began. 

The church in Havana.






The night I arrived in D.C. it was snowing.  It was so beautiful!



Arlington National Cemetery


From the Museum of the Bible.

The White House.
Merry Christmas, friends.  Plug in your nativity.  Celebrate the Savior and all you've been given in this life, no matter what may seem to be missing.  Don't miss all the lights that are burning for the few that have gone out or may have never been lit (said a good friend one time).  Shine Brightly.  

Usually, there is one song that ends up being the theme song for each journey.  A few days before I left home this song came to mind, and I've played it (and prayed it) on repeat for most of the trip.  If you want to hear a beautiful song, that goes with this time and these pictures you can listen by clicking this link:
Thank you, Jesus, by Hillsong Worship
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I woke up just before my alarm went off at 3 am this morning, and I was so glad it didn’t jar me out of a dead sleep.  It’s always better when I’m able to drift back to awake.  As soon as I opened my bedroom door the smell of Folger’s classic roast hit me in the face and I was thankful for a coffee pot that can be programmed the night before. What an unnecessary and wonderful invention.  I filled the cup (also programmed the night before), and went back to a little table with an old lamp and half burnt candle, and opened the Word that would give me strength for this day and undoubtedly the days to come. The ribbon bookmark was holding the page for Luke 20:41-47.  Jesus answered a lot of questions with questions. Although he knew the answers to the questions, he chose to respond to the motives of the person/people who were doing the asking.  He knew why they asked.  He knew what they were trying to get at. He knew when it was hurt, fear, doubt, or pride that motivated their questions.  He’s still good at that. He knows why we have questions.  He’s not afraid to answer them as he reveals our motives and calms and heals the sometimes thinly veiled heart of our question.  Reading Luke’s letter to a man named Theophilus to explain what and who Jesus was and is, is a great place to watch what Jesus did and why. If a respected doctor you knew wrote you a letter about some pretty amazing things that were going on, would you read it?  Would you save it?  Would you share it?  Theophilus did.

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That was the only paragraph I wrote before this trip that I’m at the conclusion of as I type this from window seat 25A pointed against the wind toward the east coast of America.  Sixteen days feels a lot longer than it looks on the little calendar on my phone.  It usually does when I’m so far from home.  My first stop was to meet up with a colleague, who has become a good friend after several years of working and traveling together. Our planes from different countries landed thirty minutes apart in an old city in Europe where I never imagined going and now have been several times.  I know what train to get on for the city center, which Cathedral is my favorite, and where to get an amazing cup of coffee in a beautiful little pot.  No one there recognizes me or knows my name, but I know my own little bit about their city.  Our walk around plan prior to our next flight was cut short after some undesired but welcome intel, but it was good to have a little extra time to nap off jet lag before the next leg of the journey.

We left Europe for Western Asia where more friends with multiple accents, cultures, and histories gathered. It was the first time to have plans with one set of accents.  At the conclusion of four days together Hope and friendships had grown.  One man said he did not know I was a woman when he agreed to join us, and he was disappointed on our first day to find me as such.  He has been a shepherd of people for many years and said he did not think learning from me would be possible.  “But,” he said with a smile, “this week has proven that with God all things are possible.”  *gulp* God has led me to lay down many notions in many nations, and I fully believe that, too.  I appreciated his gracious frankness.  God is more than we think and faithful to accomplish everything he says he will do.  He was faithful to me and my friends, for our good and his glory.  Then. Sings. My. Soul.

We took a day off in which I took two naps during what was a more than welcomed rainy day. Then we began five days with a different set of accents that I’ve come to be familiar with over the last several years.  I still can not begin to comprehend their words or their lives.  But, I know Who knows them.  And He brings us together to share a few moments of our lives with each other. It’s a mystery to me, but being convinced of his Presence, his power, and his goodness we come together in his name.  No. Turning. Back.

My friends with many accents have lots of questions that in our moments together God gives us a special freedom to discuss. The very nature of our conversations to be prepared to help one another allows it to be a safe place to pose some lingering, sometimes previously unspoken, thoughts. I’ve asked a lot of questions over the years, too. I’ve asked who and what and when and where and how. I’ve debated.  I’ve tried to trap him with his own Word…” but you said, so shouldn’t you…” I’ve reasoned.  I’ve thought I was so smart.  So sure. Until these recent years when I dug in, began letting go, and committed to stop asking so many questions and just start saying yes.

Sometimes saying yes has led me to be hurt, rejected and ignored. I sneak a few questions in during those times…. “why, again?” My life does not fit into any reasonable (in my understanding) box and sometimes, even in my gratitude, that makes me feel like such a weirdo.  I think Jesus knows my motive when I ask him why. Whether hurt, fear, doubt, or pride, he seems to be more interested in my heart and motives than answering my questions.  As he forms my inner being from one degree of glory to the next, my momentary questions take a backseat to my resolve to trust this Shepherd who is my one constant. I have so little to give. Only my whispered, sometimes anxious yes, but then he tears down walls and grows gardens with it.  When I take my eyes off him I sink like a rock into doubt. But when my eyes are on him I see mountains and oceans and tears and smiles and lands and sky.  I hear hearts and accents and whispers of the way to walk and praise. He gives so much with just a yes. Which convinces me to give the next yes.

On my way home this time, he gave me a wee bit of Ireland.  Two and a half days with my friend to walk where streets do have names in Dublin. To ride a big Touristy McTouristan tour bus across the isle to see the Cliffs of Moher and Galway and green and rocks and rain and blue sky.  I’ve dreamed of going to Ireland since I was a little girl and always requested bedtime stories about rainbows and leprechauns. Deep in my gut, there has always been a wanting to go back to the land where my grandpa’s grandpa, Thomas Scully, left home and country to come to America. I learned a lot more about the potato famine and the struggle for Catholics like my ggGrandpa Thomas during the mid-1800s and what may have led him to leave. Whatever he hoped for his generations to come as he left, I hope a piece of that was realized as I arrived back there this week. Either in his desperation or courage, or possibly both, He did us good.  And though no one there knew, I carried his name and blood back to that rocky soil. I usually leave pieces of my heart on each land I step, but in Ireland, I found pieces of my heart already there waiting for me.

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Here are a few pictures as I continue to document this journey.  For so many years there were no pictures of my life as it seemed to me there was nothing to note. I had such specific ideas of what was noteworthy. The enemy of my soul had me so wrapped up in distrust and disappointments to distract me from the beauty of the life I have been given.  I don't finally have pictures to take because there are more places and faces in my life, but rather I have more pictures to take because in changing my heart the Lord drastically changed my ideas of what is noteworthy.  That change in gratitude literally opened up the world for me to be grateful. Maybe still a bit of weirdo to my own set of well-founded, very logical cultural expectations... but, a weirdo on purpose because I consider him faithful who promised to have plans for me in following him. Not because of who I am, but because of who he is.  He knows my name, and he knows your name; he is the same for me as he is for you.  It just depends on rather or not we are willing to say yes or if we allow the trees to block our view of the beautiful forest before us.


Driving out of Dublin along the River Liffey.

The Long Room at Trinity College.




At the Cliffs of Moher.




At St. Nicolas' Cathedral in Galway.

Our tour guide, also Nicholas, and another view inside the church.  

Galway street band.

Dublin breakfast and coffee.

Eighty-six year old Irma from Boston, now living in Las Vegas because she "sold her snow shovel" was my seatmate for a bit of our tour around Dublin.  She was traveling Europe solo after her granddaughter's wedding in England. "We'll always have Dublin."

This was a little museum that I will say was the definition of the word charming.  The tour guide was singing us a song.  

A handwritten sermon from the mid 1700s in St. Patrick's Cathedral in Dublin.

"Roll of the Knights of the Most Illustrious Order of Saint Patrick"



And Tom Scully, born in Waco, TX, died in Henryetta, OK, and filled a whole life in between.  He was an Irish son, husband, father, coal miner, and butcher.

His father, who passed away at age 48 when Tom was 2 years old, would have walked some of these same streets in Dublin, where several of his generations to come have now returned with his name and in his honor. 
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Plans for me have included quite a bit of wandering, but, wait for it... 

I am not lost.
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Pretty little words are everywhere.  Words crafted, fonted, and overlaid onto pretty little pictures. Some make us laugh, some stir up our loyalty, some make us dream a bigger dream than we dreamt a minute ago, and some pull us deep into old bitter or old sweet memories.  Words have a lot of power.

Words can be True and Not True.  Sometimes the exact same words are true in one instance, but not true in another.  It is not the words themselves that make them true or not true; it is the circumstances and the motives of the one who speaks them, whispers them, types them, twists them, sings them, uses them...

For instance, let's look at these words:


Those are pretty.  There is something in that reassurance that can settle a racing heart, encourage a rejected soul, lift crying eyes and set a face like flint. A pretty little word mantra can lift us up from someplace low.  I am disappointed, but, "What is meant for me will not pass my by." "What is meant for me will not pass me by." 

As we scroll through whatever we scroll through and come across little bits of inspiration we should stop for a second and think, "ok, what does that even mean?"  Pretty little words can be encouraging when they are true, but they can be deception when they are not true.  That deception can keep us headed in a wrong direction.  When we apply pretty little words that are not true, it can be like putting our hands over our ears and singing "la la la la la" to drown out true words that are spoken to us. True words that would lift us from a pit, instead of make us comfortable in it. When words are true they set us free.  When words are not true they keep us chained.

What would it take for these particular words to be True or Not True. "What is meant for you will not pass you by."

Well, first who is it that has what is meant for you?  Where is what is meant for you currently? Who put what is meant for you in motion so that it is heading toward you? Is it God? Is it your own personal output? Is it chance?  Is chance a thing?  Does the word "meant" cancel out the word "chance?" Just a few questions.

If you do believe in God, and you believe God, then you probably believe somewhere in your gut that God has a plan.  Do your life and actions demonstrate that belief, or is that belief somewhere over on the sidelines as you go about running plays? His Word says He created each of us for a purpose. Each of us has a plan.  That blows my mind because there are a whole lot of "us."  But, we don't have to be able to grasp it in order to trust it.  In faith, we step out and experience it, and then our trust and faith are confirmed.

Here is the thing though about the pretty little words above:
What is meant for you can and will pass you by.

If we believe God has the hand in what is meant for us,
then unless we position ourselves in His hand,
our meant for us will pass right by. 

His meant isn't about a specific person, place or thing.  His meant has so much more to do with our hearts in any circumstance, (as Paul said Read Philippians 4), than it does with our specific circumstances. But, as we begin to live out our meant... specific people, places and things do come with it.  Not the other way around.

Our eternal salvation is not contingent on continually being placed well. The moment we are placed in Christ that is secure whether we are a Christian (follower of Christ) on milk or meat. God's grace is amazing.  The cross of Christ was sufficient for eternity.  But, rather, it's what was and is "meant" for us in this life.

It's our unique path and purpose determined by our Creator that can be missed.  He tells us He will guide us if we walk in faith and let His Word light the way.  His true Word. It is a tragedy if we let ourselves be satisfied with being sedated by pretty little words as we walk along any old path.

We should demand our path; cutting through bull and distraction, temptation and rejection, trekking mountains and valleys with faces set like flint to get on our path. Wherever you sit or walk today you can begin to go after it. There is no age limit. There is no righteousness requirement.  It's a choice and determination.  It doesn't mean all of your circumstances will change. It means your whole life will change even in your existing circumstances.  That is what God does when we say the word yes.

  • Then, those pretty little words are true. 
  • Then, we can know that we are directly in the path of our "meant." In plenty or in want. 
  • Then, even when confusing, we can rest in the sovereignty of the One who created us for a purpose.
  • Then, there is peace.  

This Guy Missed His Meant For Him...
In Luke 18 there is a story of the rich ruler who asked Jesus what he must do to inherit eternal life. (Luke 18:18-30) He asked Jesus because he believed Jesus was good. He believed Jesus was the right one to ask, and that he had the answers.  If this rich ruler was scrolling through reading inspirational quotes from Jesus he would have shared them on his own wall, tweeted them to his followers, posted the picture on his own site and would have been inspired, too.  But, apparently, when it came down to the get down, the rich ruler was satisfied with just the pretty little words.  He was not ready to actually follow them into the path of what was meant for him.  Jesus told him to get rid of what was in between them (for him, it was wealth), and "Come, and follow me." 

Not everyone in scripture got the specific game plan of "come and follow me" during Christ's life on earth. Some people he healed and then told them to go and tell everyone.  Some people he healed and then told them to go and not tell anyone.  Some people he taught then walked away from and on to the next village to teach others.  But, to some, he said, "come, follow me."  Here was this ruler's meant for him handed to him through the Words of Christ himself.  The ruler hung his head in sadness. He chose otherwise because in his understanding the cost was too great.  He went home to the life of his choosing, that probably still blessed him with fruits of this earth, but he missed what was meant. One life was maybe way more comfortable than the other, but assuredly way less fulfilling than if he was fulfilling his meant for him. He had the freedom to choose.  So do we.    

These pretty little words were not true for the rich ruler. If he went back to the house after his encounter with Jesus and wrote them on his bathroom mirror to encourage his heart... then these pretty little words would have been his deception that kept him on the wrong path.  There are a lot of examples of people missing their meant for them in the Bible: King Saul, Samson. And, there are a lot of examples of people stepping into their meant for them by faith and obedience: Ruth, Paul.

Will these pretty little words be true or not true for you?  Every single morning we have the opportunity to choose them to be true as we lay down reins we think we hold and take faith steps toward the One who holds what is meant for us.

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Maybe I was somewhere between 4 and six years old?  I made a decision of something I was going to do, so I walked through our little open plan living room with multi-colored orangey shag carpet.  Stepped down one little step, passed my dad where he was watching the news (boring), then stepped up another little step in the dining room kitchen area where my mom was at the stove making dinner.  I'm fairly certain some canned corn would have been in one pot, along with a recipe calling for ground hamburger meat in a skillet.  

"Mom, I'm going over to Wendy's house."  Wendy was a few years older than me and the coolest. We lived on opposite sides of a cul-de-sac where every house was filled with either an elderly couple or a young family.  Wendy had a big black dog named Bosco that scared the ever-living out of me, but Wendy letting me play at her house was worth facing the fear.  And, I decided right then was the time to get on my big wheel and go see what was up.  

"Not now.  We are getting ready to have dinner," mom said. Whaaatt?  I'm not sure if I sassed her right to her face or not, but apparently, it was brewing inside of me.  I turned from her.  Walked back through the dining/kitchen area, stomped down the little step into the living room and over to my Dad.  

"Dad, can I go over to Wendy's house?"  He said, "I just heard your momma tell you no. So, no, not right now, dinner is almost ready."  (Some of the recreated dialogue here may or may not be exactly accurate.)  So, I turned from him.  Started to stomp back across the shag toward the little step up out of the living room, when the evil spirit of back-talk overcame me, and I made a poor choice.  I turned back to him and said, "Fine, now I hate you and momma both." You guys, my dad can get up out of a recliner so fast!!  If recliner dismount were an Olympic sport.... 
This was not that moment, but the turn and hand on hip placement I am posing here may have been similar to give a little visual.
I had a little time in my room with a bit of a bruised ego, self-indignation, and red backside to think about the turn of events that had just played out.  And now, we have had years of using that line in much more light-hearted moments with each other.  

I was making plans without their input.  They already had plans for me.  Plans for dinner with corn and hamburger.  Plans to sit with me at the table and talk about the day.  Plans to put a little pat of butter on my bread and pour me a glass of sweet tea.  Good plans for me.

Maybe they would have let me go to Wendy's house all along when the time was right.  But, I jumped ahead and wrecked it. 

I had a conversation this week with a friend and we talked about making plans.  We try to make so many plans based on our own understanding.  Based on how cool Wendy from the block is.  Based on where we want to be, in case we don't get to do what we want to do.  We need money. We want purpose, and we try to figure out all the ways to make that happen.  And, we make our plans.

We stop by Jesus at that stove making us dinner and announce our plans, and then when he tries to shepherd us from the recliner as he sees us walking toward trouble... we stiff arm and back talk because we wanna do what we wanna do.  Or, we want to do what we think we need to do because we aren't sure he has the best intentions for us.  I neeeed to go to Wendy's. That's where the cool is at. In my own understanding that is the right next move.  Don't tell me no.

What plans are you making?  Who are you talking to about them?  His Word tells us He has plans already in the works, and they are good.  Sometimes if feels like we should be taking a little more charge over our plans.  Take a few big kid steps.  But, you might miss dinner if you do.  

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight." Proverbs 3:5  

He can only make your paths straight if he actually does have a destination planned for you. And, you will only get there if you actually trust him and allow him to lead. I wish I would have fully learned that lesson right there in that shaggy carpeted living room. But, it has taken a little history between us for me to learn that what He has is best and that He will get me where He has planned for me. 

If you can identify at all, then reading all of Proverbs 3 may be encouraging to you today.  Read Proverbs 3  

Think about things, but let the Lord establish your steps. 
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Last night at a class I’ve been attending at church, we were reminded to surround ourselves with the right people for our journey.  Those who help develop, encourage and grow us.  Which went right along with some other things I’ve been studying and thinking about.  The opposite of those who develop, encourage and grow us are those who don’t.  Those who discourage our convictions, enable our destructive appetites and weaken our character and dignity and possibly our dependence on God. Let’s call them Bathsheba Fetchers.  The word “fetcher” is not in the King’s English I’m sure, but it paints the right picture.

2 Samuel 11

vs. 3  “And David sent and inquired about the woman.  And one said, “is not this Bathsheba, the daughter of Eliam, the wife of Uriah the Hittite?” (Bathsheba Fetcher #1)

vs. 4  “So David sent messengers and took her…” (Multiple Bathsheba Fetchers)

Bathsheba Fetcher #1 – He answered David’s question honestly.  But Scripture doesn’t tell us if he spoke truth with a capital T.  At the end of this ordeal Bathsheba Fetcher #1 could say – “I told David that was Uriah’s wife,” and he could feel pretty good about himself.  Safe.  He answered what he was asked.  Conscience absolved.  But, he didn’t speak the full truth to David that we know of.  Which could have sounded something like this:  “King David, that is the wife of Uriah, one of your most loyal and valuable leaders. Don't go there. Come in from the roof and pull the curtain.  Flee.  This is not ok.  Brothers before others, David.  Quit talking crazy.  We need to get you out of this castle for a minute and go get some coffee and talk about this temptation you are experiencing.  Let's get it out of your gut so it can quit driving your thoughts. Remember who you are and Who’s you are. I beg you David…don’t do this.” But, we don’t read about this happening.

Bathsheba Fetcher #1 was a first line of defense that missed the tackle.  We are not sure why.  Was he afraid for his job?  Was his identity so wrapped up in his position in David’s court that he dared not question the king?  Did he have ambition to climb the king’s ladder? Did he just misunderstand his responsibility?  Did he think at all cost he was to serve David, God’s chosen, instead of at all cost he was to serve God?  We don’t know his motivation, but we do know the consequence.

Are you on defense for the Lord’s chosen around you?  Are you safely honest, but not boldly truthful?

The next line of defense are those Bathsheba Fetchers who don’t just let you slide by when you are walking out the door headed toward destruction...  They are the ones who open the door for you and run to help bring destruction to you.  They are not your friends.  When the enemy sees the first cracks in the defense opened by the ear tickling whispers/and half hearted self-saving honesty of friends who are not your friend, this second line of Bathsheba Fetchers help break the the field wide open.
We’ll fetch Bathsheba for you David. 
We’ll stroke your pride and ego, instead of encouraging you in humility.
We’ll remind you of who you are, instead of reminding you of who God is.
We’ll help take what you want, instead of protect you from losing God’s kingdom entrusted to you.

If your friend asks you to fetch Bathsheba:
- someone else’s spouse
- glory that isn’t theirs
- feed their destructive appetite

Don’t do it.

Be like Nathan who was honest and spoke truth to help draw David to repentance and restoration.  Nathan didn’t go to David on his own.  God, out of His lovingkindness called Nathan to David.  God didn’t hate David for his fall, God did everything possible to lift him up out of it.  “And The Lord sent Nathan to David…” (Read 2 Samuel 12) When the world weakens our defenses, The Lord is our defense.  And, when the world weakens defenses, God is looking for Nathans.

If you are asking your friends to fetch Bathsheba to:
- condone your destructive appetites
- feed your ego
- hide your sin
- justify your actions

Stop it.

If The Lord has sent you a Nathan. Listen to him.  Confess. Repent.  Be washed and through with that mess.

Or, don’t.

Long before David fetched Bathsheba, Saul sent people out to fetch David to kill him. Saul had fetchers of his own.  Saul was blinded by ego and greed and paranoia.  He surrounded himself by people that fed these things, except for his son.  Jonathan spoke honestly and truthfully with Saul. (Read 1 Samuel 19) But, Saul didn’t listen and he lost everything. (His disobedience began here: (Read 1 Samuel 13) and ended here (Read 1 Samuel 31)

David sinned. But, he listened. And through Christ, his kingdom is enthroned still.

Are you Saul? Are you David?  Are you Nathan? Are you fetching Bathsheba?

Man may ask you to fetch Bathsheba, but only God can call a Jonathan or a Nathan.  Pray.  We can ask The Lord to show us where we are in the narrative.  Not all of us are called to stand before kings and speak the honest truth, but we are all called to pray for those who enter their court.

"But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."
Matthew 6:33

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Last week while at a conference in North Carolina, I had the opportunity to capture a few moments at a kingdom on earth...





It was beautiful, and only a foretaste.
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The image of, or maybe it was the feeling of, taking a deep first breath came to my mind the other day as I was reading.  That thought or memory of taking a deep breath after holding my breath for a while stuck with me and made me think of different first breaths I've taken.

What first breaths can you recall?  Memorable first breaths follow memorable times of anticipation. Anticipation is generated when something is desired or hoped for, and when it is realized we can finally breathe deep, filling our lungs with air and relief.  

Can you remember the feeling of that first breath after:
  • staying under water for just a second or two, too long
  • checking the bank account to see that everything cleared
  • passing the highway patrol lead-footed and not see his lights begin flashing
  • seeing a passing score on a difficult exam 
  • the shot swishes through the hoop at the buzzer #whynot
  • getting up and walking off what could have been a serious injury
  • getting the job desperately desired
  • hearing the baby cry for the first time
  • the surgery is over and successful
  • the plane touches down on the tarmac 
Here is what I was reading that made me think about a first breath:

"Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! According to his great mercy, he has caused us to be born again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead..." (1 Peter 1:3)

I had not specifically/intentionally considered that moment of resurrection before. I've thought about Jesus' last breath on the cross, but, the images in my mind usually jump from the cross to him robed in white making himself known to Mary, the Apostles, Thomas when he doubted, and crowds of hundreds who would be eyewitnesses to his resurrection.   (1 Corinthians 15:3-11) (Read Paul's list of those to whom Jesus appeared)

According to Scripture, His death was long and agonizing. (Read What Happened) His lungs, after being drowned on the cross, were lifeless and dead, but then ... filled again.   Since he was not spared the pain of death, I wonder if He also tangibly experienced the wonder of resurrection in that moment new life occurred. I mean, did he just "zap" go from death wrap to white robe? Or, did his lungs fill slowly as the Father breathed life back into him, like when He first breathed life into Adam? Did Jesus gasp as air and life returned, or did he just awaken and arise? As I take a minute to think of that moment of resurrection, I imagine he felt the joy of that long awaited breath.

  • Breathing in deep when what you hoped is made real
  • New life breathed into what had been dead
  • Being made right with God through faith in His plan for salvation: Jesus the Messiah
Reading 1 Peter this week led me to think about that first breath that followed those moments of anticipation after his last breath while hanging on the cross.  The Bible doesn't describe for us the moment of resurrection.  These are just my wonderings. But, however it happened ...what a first breath that was.  That first breath resurrected life in Him and defeated death for us.

As we reconcile His life, death, and resurrection to the prophecy that foretold him, as we consider the lives of those first generation eye witnesses who gave everything to tell of Him, we have a choice to believe or not.  I believe.

As believers in Christ, our last breath is also promised to be followed by a first breath that we will take in His presence. John. Toots. Corky. Karla. My people who have taken their first breath because Jesus took his. Who are some of your people? Do you have this promise for yourself? Do your children have it? It's there to receive, but you have to come and take it.  This weekend we celebrate his resurrection, so it is a good time to get it. Go to church.  Hear the story.  Let your lungs be filled after a long time of anticipation, denial, or stubbornness. You probably know if you fit into one of those or not.  Take a first breath in Him if you haven't already.  

1 Peter 1:6-9 personalized..."In this I rejoice, though now for a little while, if necessary, I have been grieved by various trials, so that the tested genuineness of my faith -- more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire -- may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ. Though I do not now see him, I believe in Him and rejoice with joy that is inexpressible and filled with glory, obtaining the outcome of my faith, the salvation of my soul." 

Have you had any trouble breathing? Are you holding your breath in anticipation of either something you dread or hope?  As you commit in faith to believe what was accomplished through Jesus' first breath, I pray that you find what is more precious than gold.  Come what may it is well, and beyond it is well ...it is good.

He breathed that first breath for you, for new life, and lasting hope.

So maybe put on some white patent leather shoes, breathe it in, and celebrate.

Find a squad to celebrate with.  Here is my first super-fly Easter Squad from 1977. I mean, they are on point. Maybe don't dress your baby up like a baby chicken though.  You are supposed to decorate eggs and dress your kids. Just a little reminder.

E Squad '77: Jimmy, Chris, Jennifer and me.
PS. did you know it is "patent" leather and not "patten" leather?  I didn't.

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How do you know if that recipe you just downloaded for the best lemon cake on the planet, really is? Could it be a better recipe than the one you already have?  How can you know it's not? Sometimes we have really strong opinions about things that we haven't even baked for ourselves. I'm not trying to climb up in your oven, but maybe it's time to turn it on and do a little baking.

I have this lemon cake recipe ... 

If you don't want to bake the cake yourself, will you just slip into this pair of shoes I try to share with you through this blog and walk around in them for a minute?  Maybe if you put them on you might get a feel for how this cake tastes.

Disclaimer: I'm not the first person to bake this cake, and these are used shoes. 

Lemon Cake Recipe: 

  • Read the Bible every day. You hear OF him, but you can read the Bible to hear FROM him.
    • Just start somewhere. Ask God to help you understand. 
    • Download a Bible APP like "First 5" App with Lysa Terkeurst.  It's one of my favorites.
    • I write out whatever passage I'm reading in the morning because I like to write with a pen on paper. Like taking notes, it helps me process.  Then I write what questions I had, or I write down what stuck out to me.  It's part of a morning conversation over coffee. Have I mentioned before I like coffee and conversation?  
  • Listen and Watch. DO what you learn...       Not like Algebra.
    • There will be ways to apply His Word in your daily life that will help you through decisions, sorrows, joys.  
    • You can share how you are encouraged with someone else to help them in decisions, sorrows, joys.
  • Be changed, in a good way. Don't read to be Smart, read to be Real.
    • This world is difficult to understand.  When we are confused, we often wonder where is God and what is he doing.  Hearing soundbites and blurbs don't help you know His Word or Him any better, reading the Bible helps us know him more.  I shouldn't really comment on Harry Potter books because I've never read those books. How do I know if they are great or not?
Have you baked this recipe before?

Here is a story of how it turned out for me once upon a time.

My Used Shoes:

Two weeks ago I was flying my first flights of the year.  Straight south. Same time zone. Less than a week away.  I was excited that it seemed like a light schedule. On our way to Mexico, my playlist played through to "It Is Well" by Bethel Music.  I didn't feel a heaviness on my heart that day that was soothed by the words it is well.  But, the song was sinking in deep, so I hit the repeat button for and listened to it over and over and over for both flights. 

We arrived in Mexico to news that the number of attendees we had planned to join in a small room the next morning had tripled and moved to a new venue.  (My instant go-to insecure thoughts: my clothes are dumb and I'm not ready for a larger audience.  I talk with my hands too much for more people to join us. Someone real should've come.) The words of the song from that day came back to my mind:  "Let go my soul and trust in Him. The waves and wind still know his name."  The song I didn't need, I all of a sudden needed.

There was no coffee and it wasn't morning, but I had a conversation with Him about it.

"Ok. So, what you have prepared for me to share is the same in a small room as a big room, but the responsibility seems to have tripled.  But, I know you are not punking them. It's never me.  It's always you. Whatever you spoke to their heart to bring them here, you are faithful and you will do it. I will be as confident in the small room as the big room because you are my confidence. Not my nerd skirt.  Not my over exaggerated hand motions as I act out the words I speak. You. I was expecting calm seas. Run down here to Mexico and knock it out. Manageable in my mind. But, the wind has kicked up and there are waves and what if I sink? I came here thinking I was doing this for you, but find myself in desperate need of you, again and again and again. Thank you for every moment that reminds me of this. 'Through it all my eyes are on you, and it is well with with me.'"

The next morning I woke up, made a double instant Folgers travel packet coffee with my plug-in heating element and a borrowed cup and saucer from the restaurant and got my Bible out to hear from him.  I'm in Luke. Going through pieces of each chapter each day, writing it out.  That morning in Mexico I picked up where I had left off the day before. In the same book, I had been in for weeks. And, here is the story it happened to be:

"One day he got into a boat with his disciples, and he said to them, "let us go across to the other side of the lake."  So they set out, and as they sailed he fell asleep.  And a windstorm came down on the lake, and they were filling with water and were in danger.  And they went and woke him, saying "Master, Master, we are perishing!" And he awoke and rebuked the wind and the raging waves, and they ceased, and there was a calm.  He said to them, "Where is your faith?" And they were afraid, and they marveled, saying to one another, "Who then is this, that he commands even winds and water, and they obey him?"  Luke 8:22-25

OOOOkaaaaaaay.  Where is your faith, Haley?
It's right there in Jesus' boat. In that song. In that scripture. In my Savior. And, it's growing still.

The song He stuck in my head the day before, He spoke to my heart the morning of.  Ready to apply it, because I had read it, heard it, believed it. Kind of like when you follow the recipe for the best lemon cake on the planet ...you get cake.

If we don't listen, we won't hear.  If we don't read His Word, we won't experience Him fully. If we don't seek Him, we won't find Him. If you don't taste, you won't see.

I went to that big room that morning excited, not anxious.  The waves and wind were calmed by His voice.  What was he going to do in that place?  I wanted to be part of it. What was He going to do that He would speak to even my heart? I was excited to see.  In a room that grew smaller with each moment that we spent together... Jesus made the best lemon cake. 

Click Here to Listen and Watch Bethel's "It Is Well"

When the waves and the wind were over, we spent some lovely moments growing deeper in love with the people and the place. I took some pictures along the journey. Following Him is my favorite.

Blending like a local at Chichen Itza.
 




The name of this place is Ik Kil.  It's lovelier than it sounds.
 

We visited a natural habitat for pink flamingos. :) 

This is the second time in my life I've been in a mangrove.  I did not fall in this time, but I did see a crocodile again.  
This pastor was part of our training.  It was his brother who took us out on the boat.  Then his father-in-law fried us some fish for lunch and his wife and family joined us. New listing in my favorite moments.
 
 
Our last supper with the seminary students.  They tried to kill me with the habanero sauce in this bowl.  But, I lived. 
I hope you are encouraged to turn your oven on in your own shoes this week.
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